‘Fear is not real
The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination causing us to fear things that do not exist at the present moment. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand, danger is very real. But fear is a choice. We are all simply telling ourselves a story.
Change your story.”
My new story?! I did it! I overcame my fears and committed to homeschooling my kids! And what were my fears really? Other people’s opinions? Conditioned expectations? Feeling I would fail them? I should mention that I live in Canada and not only is it completely legal to home school your kids here, but after digging into it, schooling at home is almost encouraged by the government.
The needs of these new kids coming into this planet are not being met by our current schooling system. Not that they ever did in my opinion, but then again I was always that kid that would skip class because I couldn’t focus, and thankfully had a few teachers that noticed and would offer me the lessons to do on my own time. Just the way I liked to. I was always too busy experiencing life and lessons. But these kids, now especially, need a lot more time to cultivate their gifts and their own aspirations rather than follow an outdated system of reform.
Part of getting over my own fears was to do for me what I was trying to encourage in my kids; follow my passions, use my skills and resources, and believe in myself. I started to realize I’ve been training for this, unknowingly. Preparing for this, unconsciously. I realized I have the resources, the space, the knowledge, and the drive. I also have cultivated more patience and the awareness of my constant growth. Time to practice what I believe and preach on a more personal level.
The first few days have been engaging and exciting. I have an 8-year-old who is loving the freedom of expression and feeling confident since she’s able to help lead the lessons. This has also given her patience when playing with her younger brother whom she inevitably is teaching all the time. I’ve noticed two main things so far with keeping her home that I’d like to point out.
- She is eating better. She was always a problematic school lunch eater because all fresh food seems to taste horrible to her at school. I was always left with less than desirable choices for her school snacks. But at home, she is always munching on fresh produce and healthier meals. This has improved her focus and her overall temperament.
- her energy is more balanced as she is an empath and was constantly struggling with the energy she would pick up from her peers. After school every day she was needed to spend a good amount of time grounding, a need that now has been drastically reduced.
This change also has so far proven to benefit her brother’s life as we are no longer interrupting his routine for her school walk times, instead, he has his sister here all the time like this past summer that he enjoyed so much.
We are looking into naming our new school but so far we have decided to remove the word ‘school’ altogether . The word is associated to too many expectations and social standards that do not apply to what is being done here at home. We are calling it ‘home education’ for now and I am excited about what is to come!!
This single mom of two would like to encourage any parent thinking of homeschooling to just do a little bit of research. I’ve realized it won’t take much to show you how supported you’d be in such an en devour. I know I feel immensely confident, supported and ready after educating myself on my rights! And the best part? My daughter seems super excited too!
Excited for this next chapter in our lives!